For a day

What is the most important thing in life ? The one thing without which the allure of life is lost? Some say money others say power and a few romantics will say Love... but Freedom I think, is the most valuable of all things, the freedom to say NO, the freedom to say YES, the freedom to forgive and the freedom to hold on to that which hurts the soul if you so wish. The freedom to choose what feels right and the freedom to choose happiness even if it is just but a short lived feeling!

I wish for nothing more in this life of mine but sweet sweet dear Freedom, to do with my life whatever I will. To run free and wild oblivious to society's expectations, to love however I see fit and whomever my heart chooses for the day without being labelled, to say Yes to more without being called greedy and to Say No without the fear of hurting his/her feelings . I simply crave a little freedom from it all...even if its just for a day.

Where is my cool?

*picks up mic*
*clears throat*

I have a feeling I am no longer as cool as I used to be.

I am currently a twenty something year old who hardly parties anymore or tries out new stuff...its the kind of twenty something where you spend 70% of your day scared of the future and praying really hard you don't end up a failure. All your past mistakes flash before your eyes.... like that time you drunk too much and had a one night stand with a total stranger that probably did not look so healthy...too skinny maybe? Thin hair...*makes the catholic cross sign*. Oh boy oh boy! ...., that kind of thinking can suck the life out of anybody. 

My brother who is 17  could also be a major contributor to my feelings of being uncool. He somehow  thinks am old enough to be his guardian. Every god damn time he goes broke he hits me up ....sending me messages that prove too hard to understand. I know I misuse English but this little dude takes it to a whole new level....with x x's and abbreviations of words that are too short to be abbreviated in the first place. ..."hae d.a xiz xtill wain' 4 de cash" *screams* he somehow gets the spelling of CASH right though and when did 'dear' turn to 'd.a'? P.s I should be the fun sister he talks to about girls and fun stuff not pocket money and how hard life is. Anyway, I am putting him up for adoption...I hope its not too late. (Anyone interested in raising a hormonal teenager?) Maybe if I get rid of him I can feel young and cool again.

Being my age also means I need to be in a stable relationship otherwise am branded a grasshopper  ..eating here and there!  I am not complaining, in fact being taken comes with a lot of perks...like...like...ummh.., love! Yes, like love...but have you seen how hot men are getting this days?! Eh? Where were they during my single days...(1946) Back in the day most dudes I hang out with were either broke drunkards or immature kids who needed a ten year course on how to treat a woman. Now ...its raining gentlemen left right and centre, and i cant even flirt. Smh....

Somebody help me find my cool again!:

*walks away sheepishly*
*probably bumps into something *
*runs back to return the mic*

Nobody Cares!

"Nobody is interested in your success other than you!!"...  I remember our lecturer telling us that in class and students mumbling in detest but honestly speaking, ...I couldn't agree with him more! You think people lose sleep over that promotion you are waiting for? Nobody gives a fuck,  believe me... Unless of cos they depend on you financially .

Your failures on the other hand....ooh.... now that, hahaa..people live for that shit. They enjoy saying stuff like, "poor dude, whatever happened to him? He had so much potential" ..."nilijua tu hakuna place atafika"  blah blah blah .... in fact, they will bond over your failures! High fives will fly as they laugh out loud and friendships will be formed between your common enemies ...  it is just the way of the world  but we are sometimes too blind to notice. I do not live in a dark world as most of you are probably thinking right now..all am saying is, Calamities are of two kinds: misfortunes to ourselves, and good fortune to others.

So the next time you want to post a picture or a status informing people how hard you hustle and how much you aspire to make it in life...remember this, Nobody Cares!! Work in silence and let your success make the noise. But hey, what do I know!

Stone Age

I would hate to end up like them, I want to enjoy life in the simplest of forms. Nothing fancy, nothing flashy just life! But that is the hardest thing to do in this goddamn century. With all this social media platforms, Its like everyone has to conform otherwise you are dubbed uncool. Or people just assume you are poor!

Take instagram for instance, everybody's life is awesome...literary! Everyone captions their pictures "my life is awesome" and don't get me wrong...I appreciate positivity but when its overdone it just has this fake vibe to it. Where did realism disappear to? People will take pictures(selfies) in other peoples cars and say, "this traffic is driving me crazy!" Bet it doesn't drive you crazy when you are in that usual matatu...now that's a selfie I would like to see. With that sweaty guy seated next to you photo bombing !! Others will post big bundles of cash that don't belong to them with the caption ,"we out here grinding!" Or "I hustle hard bitch!" What are you grinding on exactly?? ....okay somebody hand me a gun!! Something has to be done!!

So as a way of keeping sane...I uninstalled my instagram app. My watsapp too...coz am tired of people hitting me up just coz they are bored and have nothing better to do! If its serious or urgent enough they will find time and credit to scroll for my number and call me... or just message me old school style. Yes am stone age like that! :-)